I love quotes with wolves, and the animal itself for many reasons but one reason is because one of my all time favorite cartoon movies is Balto II: Wolf Quest. I first saw that movie in my 20s and it made me real emotional, cause I connected with Alu, the daughter trying to find out who she "really was." She was half husky and half wolf.
Her father was wolf and she ended up on a spiritual journey partially guided by her spirit guides and wolf grandmother in spirit (the raven), leading her on the path of her true destiny was to be the wolf - her wolf side. She was an outcast because she didn't look like a husky like her siblings. she looked like wolf and acted like wolf.
This is how I felt being half Puerto Rican, my father being Puerto Rican and losing my Puerto Rican roots when he left the country back to his home country when I was 12. I never felt like I knew who I was after he left and had serious identity issues for years. I was in my mid 20s when I saw this, also the start of my own journey.
And both of my grandmothers are deceased. My father's mother whom I was named after passed when my father was 12 of Leukemia, which is why I was named after her. And my mother's mother who was also very special, a very spiritual Christian woman and amazing mother who passed of cancer when I was three months old. I know both of my grandmothers are with me...
My journey of getting help for depression that started at age 12 when my father abandoned me and I started getting bullied and other things I was dealing with from the past and present at that time had just begun. At that time in my life, I felt empty, dark and lost. It was hard for me to smile "real smiles" and I felt like I just went through the motions of life.
My spiritual journey also began in my mid to late 20s, and I've been trying to connect with my Puerto Rican roots, so when I saw this I just connected with it on so many deep levels and I think it even made me cry 😂, cause I could relate to Alu. I, too, am my father's daughter. Okay... Actually,🧐it did make me cry😂. A beautiful little cartoon movie with deep spiritual meaning. Will always have my heart...❤️
With Love,
Carmen
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