I liked this name but there's too many other entity's with similar names, not identical, but similar and I don't want the stress and I don't like that.
Sucks cause my name really is "Carmen" not a pen name, or an acting name, or screenname - it's my name I was born with and named after my grandmother who died of leukemia before I was thought of.
And the funny thing with my name is, when I was a kid I hated my name cause everyone else in my school was a Jessica, or a Sara, or a Nicole. I was the only Carmen and I hated that. I couldn't appreciate how beautiful my name really was. I didn't even understand that I was half Puerto Rican till I was 12 and had a BFF that was obsessed with Puerto Ricans.
I mean, like I said before, my father didn't teach me Spanish even though he spoke it fluently because it was so hard for him to learn English when he came here. He didn't want to confuse my brother and I. With that said, this also wasn't strange for me to not know the language.
When I'd visit his home and he got married to a Mexican woman later, they always spoke Spanish around me when I'd visit for the weekend. And this wasn't strange for me. It was just "my dad" if that makes sense. So back to the name, later I learned how special my name was, that I was named after my grandmother and I grew to love how original my name was.
I also met one more Carmen, just one in real life, and she was like a motherly figure to me. So anyhow, do, do, do, do, do, I'm changing my domain name tonight. That's how my Friday's going down, lol. I usually work anyway on Fridays and Saturdays, and...Sundays so why not work on my blog. I work seven days a week basically, just less hours on some days than others.
I should make my dot com nolifecarmen.com (I haven't even dated in over five years and have no desire to - it's a choice and a good one for me - celibate, baby), but, nah, I like the name I picked better and this new name will be permanent. No more changing my name - this is it, finito. Once it changes, you'll get redirected to the new name. But this is it. I will not change it again. I promise.
P.S. Edited to add that my new name is perfectlyimperfectcarmen.com but I can't update till tomorrow now. Server issues, ugh. ✌️
P.S.S. Was not able to redirect from old domain because the hosting was Google and domain name owned by elsewhere, so...it is what it is...
With Love,
Carmen
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